make lemonade :)

Its always nice to have renewd strength and to be reborn of something. You’re so exited because you seem to have made a big discovery and cant wait to share it so everyone can feel whatever you are feeling. I say, the Lord is good J

I don’t know why but this “season” of my life I am advocating solely on transparency… living a life free of secrets.>….pretty much living a life free of hurt, disappointments, grudges, bitterness, depression. I know so because I once led a life like that and now, I have discovered something anew; the truth J

I have known the truth and the truth has set me free. J

For those of us who are Christians, remember that time when you received Jesus as your personal savior and the Holy Spirit took over? If you were like me, you were so excited and eager to share the feeling you had. For a time, I’m pretty sure everyone might have referred you as “pastor”, or “evangelist” or even “bishop”.

Such it was because it was just like fire shut up in your bones. You knew exactly what you were talking about. You knew your goal and inspiration. Well so I guess that’s how I feel. Like a renewed spirit that waited on the Lord to someday mount up with wings like and eagle J

I lived a life of secrecy, lies, defeat, and self-sympathy, just to mention but a few. It was quite a casserole, a not so delicious casserole. Layers after layers…then one day, it all went away.

When I say I am grateful for my mom over and over again, I intend to not take it back. She has been my strength and vote of confidence through every step of my transition. Therefore, now you know I am not perfect neither can I do any of this without my mom. She is the best!!

It wasn’t easy, it still isn’t. my “war cry” for this particular situation has been “grow up and grow out”. I am a victor for fighting to be a better, daughter, sister and friend. I have to remind myself that every day. I am a victor! I have all the confidence in the world, all the confidence I never had, because I shared my load and heavy burdens with God and my mom. J

The bible says The Lord will never leave us nor forsake us. And His word is not a lie because He says he is neither a man that He should lie, nor is He a son of man that He should change his mind. J

Since I believe in the divine spirit of God as well as the trinity, those who may not believe in the same faith, may think of me as crazy right now. But Lord help me, if nothing good comes out of this situation, I know it is the hand of God that has granted me favor to have a mother like mine and I will always be eternally grateful. J

That’s my lemonade J